sweat

skin
on skin
the scent
of excitement

fingers
skimming
your slick
soulful shell
my eyes catch
lazy heat trails
wafting skyward
seeking escape

moaning softly
your lips open
ever so slightly
your tongue tasting
the salty dew
left by my kiss
as you rise
against my touch

we slip through
each other's hands
heat and friction
devilishly delicious
glistening bodies
sweltering heat
the setting sun
through an open window...

cut to....

ceiling
an old fan
spinning lazily
desperately
overwhelmed
losing the battle
to dissipate
our love

still living

speaking your mind, waking the child
oats you never knew existed, rising up
trapped between who you are and who
you always thought you (would) could be
the difference between now and then
is fear...plain and painfully simple
this was never part of your plan
not the way this was meant to be
what happened to your dreams? your life...?

well, I'm here to tell you I got your back
I'm behind you and pushing, prodding...
propping you up (if) when necessary
you help carry me and I won't let you down
immeasurable strength when joined at the heart
we have what it takes if we're willing to give it all
the reality is that this is only as difficult as we make it
let's walk out together, from the shadows of our doubt
the worst is over and we still have so far to go

it's not dying that's hard...it's living

sometimes

sometimes

the words come

from way down deep

a place the shadows rule

where the sky is absent

always quiet in this place

words refusing to come

to break the  silence

roaring in my head

doubt enters like a thief

taking all that matters

dark magic, sleight of hand

ego withdraws, replaced

quiet footfalls haunt me

unseen and  unforgiving

daring me to breathe

I feel the crushing

weight of life

you come to me

as a gift, strong…true

hand and heart offered

selflessly, without doubt

lifting me from this place

knowing me as no other

lips parted in a kiss

taste of kindness

the pain dissipates…

here

here

alone

hopeless

perfect me

somewhere ahead
looming on the horizon

so peaceful

when the wind blows

I hear a whispered voice

its silent expectations unspoken

damning and impossible to achieve

my hope

always evolving

shedding my old skin 

leaving the broken past behind

no longer who (what) I once was

help me...

tear this wall down

destroy all I have been

unworthy and undeserving

tainted by my immovable heart

fighting a battle I can't possibly win

I saw myself

in a life I dreamed...

I don't want to imagine

all the things that I can't have

I want to feel the bottomless love

here

alone

hopeful

imperfect me

here and now

living on the edge of forever

the night

folded into the night
soft, silky arms envelope me
wrapping me in dark warmth
black velvet on my skin

you live in my deepest fantasy
where I'm lost for words in your arms
your silhouette sublimely etched
in the corner of my imagination

I can conjure up your sweet kiss
the gossamer touch of your hand
need in your eyes, want on your lips
in the night I can read your mind

how can we make time stop
to capture this perfect instant
life in stasis here in the dark
this moment goes on forever

I see you with my eyes shut tight
feel you, know you, touch you
in dreams all things are possible
eternity has wonderful plans for us