Saturday, October 22, 2011

the weight



breathe
calm down
stop
just stop

somehow
my enthusiasm
makes you uncomfortable
why?
is it the intrusion?
(your life's a prize?)
what is it about
emotion
that creeps you out?
is it the exposure?
vulnerability?
responsibility?

you really want
reward without
risk
sensation without
stimulation
love without
exposure

where's the adventure in that?



Friday, October 21, 2011

fate loves the fearless

this would be so much easier if I could only stop caring...but you give me hope (damn you)
...why does asking for your love make me weak?

more to come...


Sunday, October 16, 2011

the unknown


there is no safety in the unknown
but it is our only hope
live and love fearlessly

Saturday, October 15, 2011

(re)born



take all you want
(want all you take)
feel the way you hate
(hate the way you feel)

it's been a while since any of this made sense
the things we're most frightened of are the most worthwhile
can't you feel that? the adrenaline rush coming on
embrace this feeling...so visceral, so pure, so real
the spark in your eyes is all I need to set myself on fire
ask me to stay and kiss me hard, I know you want to
lay your head on my cross and whisper to me with your hands
we are a temple, a new religion, a brand new dogma
driven by our needs and animal instinct...unashamed
we climb the altar to consummate, a carnal sacrifice
our bodies and lives come together in perfect union
hips grinding, frenzied eyes lock, breath coming in gasps
inhibitions fall away with our old skin and we are reborn




Monday, October 10, 2011

intervention



soaring high above my damage
broken wings worrying me
so much closer to the flame
exposed by my naive heart

apparitions hovering above
spirits of my hopeless quest
life, full of fear and angst, remains
merciless, empty, and far too long

in vain my soul survives
fodder for this pointless flesh
choices seem even more irrelevant
deviants should never pray

falling into the dead, black sea
floating in my abandoned words
irresistible forces tug at me
drowning in the undertow

self-medication/meditation
I've only just become addicted
aren't lovers always the suckers?
chasing the dragon, proving our worth

I'm so tired of it, all I need
sick of giving it all away, nothing left
I watch the lights go down and I know
closer to the flame, nearer to the blame

Sunday, October 9, 2011

if we could only


chemicals between us
we don't/can't comprehend
missives and thoughts
become reasons and lies

hope strings us along
faith is a subterfuge
love a mirage...wavering
always in the distance

wandering through my life
alone, often as not (alone)
yearning for the craving
will it ever be real again?


Saturday, October 8, 2011

remembering the future



I've waited
forever
to feel
wanting
needing
remembering

hot breath
soft touch
sensual and perfect
evidenced in your eyes

I run breathless to you
collapse at your feet, spent
knowing you will realize
my heart will reach your sea
perfect aura surrounds us
keeping me safe and sound
remembering what we will be