Wednesday, July 27, 2011

beautiful frustration


and then...really?

how could two bodies, in all the vastness of dark space
ever manage to come so close to breathless perfection?

perfection in balance
ever evolving, their gyrations appear chaotic
oscillation becomes less apparent, self-centering chemistry
but I digress...

this is like staring at the sun
you dare not gaze directly, surely to be overwhelmed
the trick is to get a sense of this celestial body...and look away
my mind wanders...

I have become trapped in this beauty's orbit
compelled by a tidal force, quivering uncontrollably...wonderfully...
like a perfectly tuned fork or a finger lightly skimming a thin crystal flute
imagination running wild...
completely absorbed by the gravitational pull, I give in...

now we touch...we touch...shyly, as children
speed and friction build, blinding light, a stars birthright
soon we are locked in an inescapable closeness
lit from within, producing almost (almost) unbearable heat
perpetual energy, the perfect machine...


Sunday, July 24, 2011

throw it all away *


debilitated by the ghosts that haunt us
crippled by the judgement of others
guilt weighing us down, sapping our strength
the things we have held dear seem ethereal now
a trick of light, smoke, and mirrors... non-existent
it's unfair that we've wasted so much time...

trying to live on the validation of others
we've lost ourselves and what's (really) important
refusing to expose a vulnerable heart
we lie to ourselves to justify the pain
sold a story riddled with ulterior motives and deceit
ashamed that we didn't see it coming

help me destroy the fear, the shame and self-doubt
help me to carry the things I can't bear alone, I need you
don't we finally deserve to live? haven't we earned a parole?
a heart unafraid, that gladly offers shelter from the storm
the feeling of a true friend, the warm embrace of acceptance
the look you see in the eyes of innocent, honest love
so powerful...so beautiful

I want to...
feel weak from desire, not punishment
taste passion that knows no boundaries
feel beauty that stops/starts my heart
know honesty without fear, without judgement
don't be afraid, you know you want it


I had a dream that we were lovers...



















* Title inspired by Toad the Wet Sprocket

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

hard to hold



we've always believed there was time
time to find the one who understands
understands our fragility, feels our pain
pain that has dulled our senses (so numb)
senses that were formerly sharp, intensity ruled
ruled our heart, stealing our breath
breath that we once offered without hesitation
hesitation has become tyranny, ever devouring
devouring our hope, robbing us blind
blind fear now the order of the day (day after day)

now time slips away
leaving us gasping
raping our spirit
pillaging our need
leaving a void
forsaken, forgotten, forlorn

I care, but you were always so hard to hold
stop running, slow your pace, feel me while you still can
catch your breath...slow and deep
take my hand, my motives are pure
to do harm would kill me
left alone without you
...again

fuck that

true to life



I ask a lot
I know
I want a lot
...who doesn't?
I need a lot
I always will

(ask me, I'll tell you
don't be afraid, I want you
come with me, I need you)

what I ask
can't be answered
what I want
can't be given
what I need
can't be satisfied

I don't want some
I want it all
I won't settle for later
I want now
I need this, please
I can't hold back

I give/take
I live to fill/feel the need
what greater good
than to return the favor?

I always will




Monday, July 11, 2011

madness



in a virtual world
life and love exist in stasis
time stands still

you and I are a mystery
far away and funny, you make me laugh
I am new and you play along
hoping to find a heart that you can feel

your guard comes down...slowly, you are exposed
your smile and a flash of ivory skin disarms me
I realize I am in the presence of brilliance
loud, full of color, lit from the inside, beautiful genius

your hand brushes mine...you touch me
I'm scared, not sure of myself or my place
I can't pull away, feeling the draw of your moonlit face
I feel the betrayal of my heart (God Damn it!)
wonderful madness takes me