the weight

breathe
calm down
stop
just stop

somehow
my enthusiasm
makes you uncomfortable
why?
is it the intrusion?
(your life's a prize?)
what is it about
emotion
that creeps you out?
is it the exposure?
vulnerability?
responsibility?

you really want
reward without
risk
sensation without
stimulation
love without
exposure

where's the adventure in that?

fate loves the fearless

this would be so much easier if I could only stop caring...but you give me hope (damn you)

...why does asking for your love make me weak?

more to come...

the unknown

there is no safety in the unknown

but it is our only hope

live and love fearlessly

(re)born

take all you want

(want all you take)

feel the way you hate

(hate the way you feel)

it's been a while since any of this made sense

the things we're most frightened of are the most worthwhile

can't you feel that? the adrenaline rush coming on

embrace this feeling...so visceral, so pure, so real

the spark in your eyes is all I need to set myself on fire

ask me to stay and kiss me hard, I know you want to

lay your head on my cross and whisper to me with your hands

we are a temple, a new religion, a brand new dogma

driven by our needs and animal instinct...unashamed

we climb the altar to consummate, a carnal sacrifice

our bodies and lives come together in perfect union

hips grinding, frenzied eyes lock, breath coming in gasps

inhibitions fall away with our old skin and we are reborn

intervention

soaring high above my damage

broken wings worrying me

so much closer to the flame

exposed by my naive heart

apparitions hovering above

spirits of my hopeless quest

life, full of fear and angst, remains

merciless, empty, and far too long

in vain my soul survives

fodder for this pointless flesh

choices seem even more irrelevant

deviants should never pray

falling into the dead, black sea

floating in my abandoned words

irresistible forces tug at me

drowning in the undertow

self-medication/meditation

I've only just become addicted

aren't lovers always the suckers?

chasing the dragon, proving our worth

I'm so tired of it, all I need

sick of giving it all away, nothing left

I watch the lights go down and I know

closer to the flame, nearer to the blame

if we could only

chemicals between us

we don't/can't comprehend

missives and thoughts

become reasons and lies

hope strings us along

faith is a subterfuge

love a mirage...wavering

always in the distance

wandering through my life

alone, often as not (alone)

yearning for the craving

will it ever be real again?

remembering the future

I've waited

forever

to feel

wanting

needing

remembering

hot breath

soft touch

sensual and perfect

evidenced in your eyes

I run breathless to you

collapse at your feet, spent

knowing you will realize

my heart will reach your sea

perfect aura surrounds us

keeping me safe and sound

remembering what we will be