eyes closed

hot breath
back of my neck
fingers tracing
a lazy path
down

whispers
reverberate
hair standing on end
skin tingling
electricity

I fight...futilely
hands searching
unseen
landslide of tactile
sensation

touch me
(please)
release me
(please)
take me to that place
(please)
open...
my eyes

right now

mental
friction
causing heat
frenzied touch
agonizing in it's urgency
dizzy and punch drunk
reeling from the rush of blood
wanting nothing (nothing) more than you
right
now
days of grace long gone
I take you down
tasting your soul
body convulsing
beautifully
perfectly
melting
like a candle
on the window sill
at every kiss
cover my mouth
to muffle a scream
tongues tangled
bodies
crashing
unable to speak
connected
collapsing
wrecked
dreaming
in your arms

in the moment

you enter...

from far beyond

dropped from a darkening sky

inhaling deeply

still left breathless

slowing my pulse by sheer will

dreaming myself

hope(fully)lessly tied to you
longing for the crushing depth of us

time passes
ripping open limbo
waiting to wake you with a kiss
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"I've never prayed, but tonight I'm on my knees, yeah"

The Verve

sun(shine)

warm sun
shining
frozen heart
yielding
slow steps
on thin ice

dancing fast
to keep my feet
sliding into you
eyes and hearts
off to the races

living for
times like these
dreams in the offing
floating on the horizon
promise of an sapphire sky
as I learn to breathe (again)

between us

darkness
I feel
pressure
building
long time coming

downward
spiral
sinking
praying
for so long

save tonight
drink me in
by candlelight
we touch
lost in the here and now

sipping
wine
tasting...you
finding us
lost and found (finally)

catalyst (we are)

chemical
reaction
ingredients unknown
randomly measured
sublime
mixture

breathe
feel the connection
sin and acceptance
a wonderful concoction
osmotic
blameless

formula
deviation
elements combined
generation of heat
perfect
chemistry

memory

gasping
as my hand
brushes against you
tracing a meandering line

quivering
as my lips
softly touch yours
tasting your hot breath

feeling
my body on yours
overwhelming our senses
pounding out a primal rhythm

screaming
a feverish pitch
crashing and burning
in a perfect blend of lust and madness

mask

something in the way
love strips away our masks
the space between filled with desire

I keep watching you
dreaming of touching your lips
imagining words that soothe my soul

all I want is to feel
weight lifted as we rise above
gravity pulling us closer and closer

I love the way
chemicals between us dance
reflected in the pool of our moonlight

barefoot and running
forgetting what's in pursuit
outrunning all our fears (safe from harm)

this house is on fire
shackled and chained to you
let's take this life as it comes...together

voices

voices
in my head
silently
screaming
every word
breaking my heart

ghostly
heavy thoughts float
weightless
knowing
forever there
crossing my mind

memories
an angel's wings
ethereal
immaculate
always present
guarding my soul

(un)blinded

I need to get inside
so hard to do
seemingly powerless
blocked by entities I can't see
vision is only given
to those with eyes shut tight

passing through my darkness
I see sporadic movement
in the corner of my eye
laughing ghosts of pain
flying through my open door
into the waiting night

picking at the wounds
to heal would leave a scar
torn apart and put together
you are the bandage
my heart has longed for
falling into your arms

mission statement (love)

I have given and I have taken, been both good and bad, but I've always tried to be present. All I've ever asked is the same in return. Relationship is about the one-on-one, not building a collection of people that will somehow validate me. Not that we all can't use some validation from time to time, I just believe validation comes from within. I believe in love, I believe that another person can help fill the void in our lives and in our souls.

To sanctify another and be held in the same esteem is a life-affirming act. Different people have different belief systems. Some, like me, love love...that doesn't, on it's face, make the feeling any less genuine, so long as you are willing to take emotional responsibility for your love. Some people only feel love when they have the adoration and validation of many. I want the undying, uncompromising, unconditional love of the one. I'm certainly not walking through this life faultless or blameless, I am not and never will be perfect, but I know me and I know what I want and what I have to offer.

Love is not a bargaining chip...love is a privilege, earned by giving first...held by giving constantly and unconditionally. It is only a win-win or a lose-lose proposition...the upper hand is always an empty hand.

Just sayin'...

gypsy soul

dreaming of the touch
shivering and afraid
darkness so familiar
searching for home

your lullaby unrehearsed
a sublime siren song
gates of heaven open
the longest night ends

you saved my gypsy soul
stole it without a fight
take me, love me, hold me
keep me from the pouring rain

...and nothing shall come between us

morning rapture

hands gliding over
sleepy, warm flesh
turning away to push
the ever-present desire
deeper and deeper into...

eyes unfocused
delicious dew forms
breath coming faster
as kisses whisper softly
over neck and shoulders

hips rising urgently
quivering uncontrollably
begging to be taken
wrapped in strong arms
slick with want and need

hyper-sensitive
seduction complete
incapable of thought
reason lost to hunger
touch becomes euphoric

force of nature
as bodies collide
irresistible gravity
wonderfully overwhelmed
consumed...rocked...perfect rapture

knowing

it feels as though
a hundred lives
have passed me by
a cold, hard lesson...
often, what you fear
is what you find

survival often means sacrifice...

falling (torn) apart
living on the crumbs
face hidden behind
a jade(d) mask of hope
faith that died...slowly
brought here to burn

but I want to sleep inside you...

lips touching yours
skin hot to the touch
hips grinding madly
our bodies entwined
tied in a forever knot
wanting only to explode

this dream of life and death
fading...as two become one

passion found (a rant)

I have wanted (waited)
for far too long
I have had to plead
for far too much
what I would give
won't be marginalized
as imperfect or ineffectual
the love I have offered
is neither tainted nor damaged
no...what's broken in me
if you can call it "broken"
is my pain threshold (it doesn't exist)
common sense says "stay down"
but I will stand up every time
I will fly in the face of a reality
that would see me alone...
I've made mistakes, to be sure
and I've lived a life of atonement...
so stand in judgment...you win (lose)
it's not a battle I choose to fight
what you seem to know of me
is limited to what you choose to see
I am not bent or broken
I am me...an unknown quantity
a body of love, need, and passion
held together by dreams and hope
so tired of being told that simply...isn't...enough