gypsy soul

dreaming of the touch
shivering and afraid
darkness so familiar
searching for home

your lullaby unrehearsed
a sublime siren song
gates of heaven open
the longest night ends

you saved my gypsy soul
stole it without a fight
take me, love me, hold me
keep me from the pouring rain

...and nothing shall come between us

morning rapture

hands gliding over
sleepy, warm flesh
turning away to push
the ever-present desire
deeper and deeper into...

eyes unfocused
delicious dew forms
breath coming faster
as kisses whisper softly
over neck and shoulders

hips rising urgently
quivering uncontrollably
begging to be taken
wrapped in strong arms
slick with want and need

hyper-sensitive
seduction complete
incapable of thought
reason lost to hunger
touch becomes euphoric

force of nature
as bodies collide
irresistible gravity
wonderfully overwhelmed
consumed...rocked...perfect rapture

knowing

it feels as though
a hundred lives
have passed me by
a cold, hard lesson...
often, what you fear
is what you find

survival often means sacrifice...

falling (torn) apart
living on the crumbs
face hidden behind
a jade(d) mask of hope
faith that died...slowly
brought here to burn

but I want to sleep inside you...

lips touching yours
skin hot to the touch
hips grinding madly
our bodies entwined
tied in a forever knot
wanting only to explode

this dream of life and death
fading...as two become one

passion found (a rant)

I have wanted (waited)
for far too long
I have had to plead
for far too much
what I would give
won't be marginalized
as imperfect or ineffectual
the love I have offered
is neither tainted nor damaged
no...what's broken in me
if you can call it "broken"
is my pain threshold (it doesn't exist)
common sense says "stay down"
but I will stand up every time
I will fly in the face of a reality
that would see me alone...
I've made mistakes, to be sure
and I've lived a life of atonement...
so stand in judgment...you win (lose)
it's not a battle I choose to fight
what you seem to know of me
is limited to what you choose to see
I am not bent or broken
I am me...an unknown quantity
a body of love, need, and passion
held together by dreams and hope
so tired of being told that simply...isn't...enough

skin and bones

I am a man
broken but healing
fashioned after
fault, pain, and beauty

eyes that see
mind that sees more
fingers that feel
heart that feels deeper

exposed and unafraid
barren yet always growing
I walk to the splintered edge
leaping to certain life

I am but a man
skin and bones (and wonder)
lost and forever searching
fragile, yet unbreakable

I am but a man...

(not) unworthy

wrapped
in each other's arms
smothered
in each other's doubt
we are imperfect

lost
in each other's eyes
wondering
what the other is thinking
we are in pain

struggling
in each other's hearts
frightened
by who we are
we are alone

the fear of exposing ourselves
steals the joy of what may be
the denial of emotional responsibility
slowly destroys all we desire
it's a lesson we never learn

there you are

good
enough...
isn't

perfection
takes many forms
wishing
endlessly
to feel the touch
to taste the lips
to know the happy ending

hands tied tight
heart on my sleeve
like a man in a box
isolated by self-doubt
my curse and creation
searching for redemption
in your heart

I move...
my body and mind
trying desperately to outrun
this cloud of damnation I've created

I need you to be...
my hope, dreams, light and love
to feel me is to risk it all
take me to the brink
feel me pull away in fear
a self-fulfilling prophecy
doomed from the start

this needs to stop

take me, hold me
never let me up
when I scream
I've had enough
hold me down
love me madly
make (this) life end

help me feel again

breathless

simple
profound
unknown
a slow burn
hot to the touch

alive
awake
no pain(ful)
wanting...
to be captured
taken by a lover
not a mirror...but a reflection


to feel the agony of perfection
knowing this love must exist
you know...the one they write about
it's what keeps me awake at night...

wanted inside and out
with no limit accepted
taken beyond the brink
I was born to break this
these words escape me
bleed out of this broken man
if I had my way I wouldn't be...

bleeding, breathless and dreaming

missing

I wake every morning...

the waters part
I'm left gasping
without you there
like a mountaintop
beautiful...and airless

why can't I breathe?

I've waited for you
forever...
nameless and broken
trying to be strong
tripping on my words
tearing at the seams
selling my soul
one piece at a time
lost in all the reasons
starving for deep love
wanting to dive in...and drown

this space is so empty

never knowing
always hoping
like a memory
yet to happen
a life not yet lived...
somewhere I belong


filled with the wonder of what may be

thin as the air I'm breathing

you aren't there

sun(burn)

I dream of the smooth contours of your skin
my mind creating choreography for my fingers
caressing the low points, touching and lingering
doing little pirouettes on the peaks that quiver
hands playfully gliding across your glistening skin

cool water can't sooth your sweltering skin
muscles contract and relax under my deft touch
eyes shut tight, back arching, fists clenched
sun, heat conspire, pushing you toward me
closer to the edge, nearer to flash point

your hands find my burning flesh...I melt
taking hold and removing all doubt of intent
our skin slick, anointed by sweat and desire
sensual waves dance on my mind's horizon
my resistance fails completely, I'm taken

just another heat stroke...

beach sand

my love
like a note
in a bottle

floating in the ocean

my heart
like a ship
lost at sea

my soul
like a ghost
on the foredeck

riding the rising tide

my hope
like a port
in the storm

you...so beautiful
are the sand on the beach
where my ship comes to rest

mythical (dream with me)

mythical
not of this world
a fawn eyed girl
lying in the lush grass
surrounded by fairies

magical
unknown quantity
the analog kid
in a digital world
wishing it would go away

there are moments
that define our lives
so wondrous and beautiful
as to defy definition
they remain nameless

stay here with me
in this (our) paradise
fairytales can come true
sleeping peacefully
come, dream with me

isn't it time?

time races...

left holding empty hope
love and life lost to indecision
watching it pass, losing our place
we get what we accept
nothing more or less

shackled to a life
that was never intended
a soon-to-be train wreck
casey jones bailed long ago
this tragedy is yours alone
no sympathy for the devil

who told you this would be easy?
(they lied to you)

life is short
pain is endless
hurt, healing
pain, joy
fear, hope
heartbreak, love

go ahead...sigh
deny these things
quick, give up now
take the coward's way
trapped in a safety net
no risk, no reward

embrace your pain
savor lifes's bitter taste
turn it around
learn from it
look in the mirror
face yourself...know yourself

sunrise

sun breaks
on the horizon
I sense you beside me
feeling you before seeing you

light pours
fluid, in the window
our spirits rising in the heat
shadows cast out with the fear

the space
between dark and light
filled with ghosts that haunt us
dreams and nightmares coexist

your body
becomes the buffer
peace within the chaos
your touch relieves my pain

soft skin
unbroken canvas
light, smooth and inviting
painted with wondrous beauty

sun sets
moon pushes me
so very deep inside you
your kiss lives in the dark of night

too soon

too hot to think straight
standing over the grave
seems like only yesterday
we were kids, younger, happier

you will be missed
you already are, little brother

too soon to be believed
just spoke to you last night
you left without a goodbye
now just ashes in the grass

you will be missed
you already are, my friend

too late to help you see
it didn't have to be this way
left with nothing but memories
your beauty never discovered

you will be missed
more than you can know

too hot to think straight
standing over the grave
seems like just yesterday
we were kids...