feeling it

every time I think of you

my heart swells, pounding

dancing joyously in my chest

whenever I ponder what might be

my mind wanders/wonders

lost in a daydream of possibility

thoughts of you come faster and faster

taking me, stealing my breath, lifting me up

leaving me starry eyed and (magnificently) distracted

is this what I think it is? no....couldn't be (could it?)

it's been so long since I've felt this way

it's a warm, wonderful, unfamiliar feeling

like the embrace of God, so inviting

do you feel it too? or is it just a trick of my heart?

I've been deceived before, betrayed by my hopes

sometimes you want something so badly

you're willing to run toward the mirage...so thirsty

but I feel you so this can't be a mirage (can it?)

run with me and let's find out together

I know it's scary, I get that...so what?

if you hold my hand and look me in the eyes

feel the touch of my lips on yours, so soft

trust in your heart as I have come to

the world only holds the power we give it

let's take it back, let's live this dream

nothing is more courageous than real love

and you haven't lived/loved until you've felt it

it lives in the dream of your kiss...

boxing paul

...and if sometimes, I can't seem to talk

you'll know this blackboard lacks a piece of chalk...

Stan Ridgeway

falling

life

shot from a cannon

hitting the wall

breaking the waves

exhilaration

driven by urgency

desperation (fear, it's always fear)

driven by history

looking as I leap

have mercy on me

watching your shadow pass

the faith is in my fall

caught up in connection

can't catch my breath

pieces of me tumbling

head over heals

(careful what you wish for)

make me scream

dance with my soul

make that leap of faith

I love this part...

been a while

my mind is quiet, my soul subdued

not sure I like this...I miss the chaos

more to come

shine with me

like old varnish

colors mutate

belief will fade

love can fail

shining bright

like the sun

resigned to go down

breathe it in

while it lasts

when it's gone

climb to the top (alone)

look around

everything comes

at a price

sun sets earlier

as autumn arrives

moon chasing it down

dark and lonely

never ending pursuit

beauty...almost

always dies first

take me in

make us whole

keep it in faith

holy and sacred

let's fill this space

with all we can be

holding it close

transported

When I woke up this morning, the world felt right. Sometimes you have to put your life in perspective, you have to look at the highs and the lows and realize that even though it isn't perfect, it's pretty damn good. You wake up and have a cup of coffee, knowing you are loved and feel the warmth of the sun on your face and in your life.

I like where I am, I like what I do and I like where it's going. I'm inspired by green eyes and clear thoughts. Good days being followed by great days. I feel it. Bring it...

your green eyes

green eyes

not

just a color a mood

sometimes in the middle of...

strange

out of place

you've touched me

reached right out

grabbed me

I sense my grasp on reality.........slipping

I know the love I feel is real

yours mine ours

is it the same for you?

does your mind play tricks on me

excitement making you anxious to know

love can feel like a bus

running me over or

a wind

lifting me like a leaf, gently

blowing me in your direction

often

I can't tell the difference

help me feel this, make it real

please

refugee

I lie awake

night enveloping me

thoughts of you creep in

stealing my heart's fear

longing for your touch

soft and sweet, purposeful

friend, lover, savior

insecurities melt away

wish I were with you

closing the distance

discovering our potential

detaching from the pain

passion is hard to find

even harder to hold

you give me faith

we give me hope

live, love, learn with me

don't fear the night

it belongs to us now

stay and burn...

like a house on fire

the weight

breathe
calm down
stop
just stop

somehow
my enthusiasm
makes you uncomfortable
why?
is it the intrusion?
(your life's a prize?)
what is it about
emotion
that creeps you out?
is it the exposure?
vulnerability?
responsibility?

you really want
reward without
risk
sensation without
stimulation
love without
exposure

where's the adventure in that?

fate loves the fearless

this would be so much easier if I could only stop caring...but you give me hope (damn you)

...why does asking for your love make me weak?

more to come...

the unknown

there is no safety in the unknown

but it is our only hope

live and love fearlessly

(re)born

take all you want

(want all you take)

feel the way you hate

(hate the way you feel)

it's been a while since any of this made sense

the things we're most frightened of are the most worthwhile

can't you feel that? the adrenaline rush coming on

embrace this feeling...so visceral, so pure, so real

the spark in your eyes is all I need to set myself on fire

ask me to stay and kiss me hard, I know you want to

lay your head on my cross and whisper to me with your hands

we are a temple, a new religion, a brand new dogma

driven by our needs and animal instinct...unashamed

we climb the altar to consummate, a carnal sacrifice

our bodies and lives come together in perfect union

hips grinding, frenzied eyes lock, breath coming in gasps

inhibitions fall away with our old skin and we are reborn

intervention

soaring high above my damage

broken wings worrying me

so much closer to the flame

exposed by my naive heart

apparitions hovering above

spirits of my hopeless quest

life, full of fear and angst, remains

merciless, empty, and far too long

in vain my soul survives

fodder for this pointless flesh

choices seem even more irrelevant

deviants should never pray

falling into the dead, black sea

floating in my abandoned words

irresistible forces tug at me

drowning in the undertow

self-medication/meditation

I've only just become addicted

aren't lovers always the suckers?

chasing the dragon, proving our worth

I'm so tired of it, all I need

sick of giving it all away, nothing left

I watch the lights go down and I know

closer to the flame, nearer to the blame

if we could only

chemicals between us

we don't/can't comprehend

missives and thoughts

become reasons and lies

hope strings us along

faith is a subterfuge

love a mirage...wavering

always in the distance

wandering through my life

alone, often as not (alone)

yearning for the craving

will it ever be real again?

remembering the future

I've waited

forever

to feel

wanting

needing

remembering

hot breath

soft touch

sensual and perfect

evidenced in your eyes

I run breathless to you

collapse at your feet, spent

knowing you will realize

my heart will reach your sea

perfect aura surrounds us

keeping me safe and sound

remembering what we will be